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Sunday, September 17, 2006
Miscommunication
is unclear information being exchanged. The "mis" word would already
have meant that it is something that not both parties want i suppose.
Sometimes when it happens, the consequences that tag along w it can be
so far fetched that it may be worse than wat we think...
Was supposed to meet a friend last nite but din manage to...waited till
i dozed off at 3am...all becoz of MISCOM!!! wat can i say...
Posted at 05:59 pm by B.B.
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never reali can keep things abt myself from my friends especially close
friends... i got this thing abt having to share, say it out coz i
suppose that's my way of relieving myself... well the point is i had an
event in my life where all my close friends knew except 1. My plan was
to tell her but never reali gotten to it. And i alwiz had this thot if
i was gg to tell her onli on my death bed or wat... yes, there is no
oblogations to tell anyone about my life but i feel wierd when moz knew
except her.
Finally, as the chinese saying goes, "paper can
never wrap fire". She got to know it by chance. @ that mmt, i was
relieved yet startled as i wasn't prepared for it. I was expecting alot
of questions n maybe to the extent of her "scolding" me but no.
Nevertheless, i updated her accordingly and thank you for being
understanding =)
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for the first time, my bmi is of acceptable level...
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it has been too fast... too fast for the past one half mths... I had
decided to slow down when things happened n it further confirmed that i
needed to reali "slow down"... but then, if it did not happen, i
wouldnt have learn new things again. But please, tell me the truth... y
is it when i admitted to u n ask u questions alwiz but u asked me not
to worri n that i m doing fine. Yet, @ the turn of my back, another
thing was said. I thank you for being there n so encouragin during this
period. I guess i was juz abit "question mark"... i know this it the
tension period for many... In any case, besides e few things that
cropped up, i juz wanted to be quiet for now...that's abt it.
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AL: U shocked me when u told me wat u had thot of previously... do rethink ur thots... i might not be wat u think :)
Posted at 12:23 am by B.B.
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Tuesday, August 22, 2006
Juz
got home from work not long ago. A good bath after a whole day out n
now m refreshed! Duno if this is good or bad... good thing is m a night
owl so @ least i have somethin to occupy me @ nite but bad thing is
when work finishes @ this wierd <to me la> hour where u can't
sleep n stuff... wat can i do... u tell me la :p Dun be mistaken that i
m complaining, m juz penning dwn my thots :) Aniwaez, i've got a
coolz friend who offered to send me back n help me carry some heavy
stuffs to my house. Realli appreciate it ;-) I am alwiz happie to
know there are nice people around me coz people should be nice by
nature n prob, i still wan to stick to my belief tat no one is born a
baddie?
Have u ever met someone whom u tok to him / her in
prob 3 different styles or more under different circumstances or
situations? Well, i have n somehow this feelin's farnee. How the
respective conversations "set" in the situations for now:
1) The Enviroment - nothin but suanings, jokes,
laughs, squabbling,arguing, "scoldin"...basically the entertainers
2) Thru Text - No expressions can be interpreted frm
here. In a jokin or teasin manner, but there r times where u juz feel
"cut", not bein welcomed, actin stooopid
3) Online - Somehow things can be discussed properly n
e content sounds sincere. For once, would think tat we finali
have time to know each other betta
4) Face-to-face <privately> - Zombified?
Stone? Awkward moment of silence? Wantin to know more but little effort
made from... both sides?
This analysis can't seem to exprress
exactly how i feel. I duno about the corresponding party but this is i
feel so far i suppose... there's prob room to explore further 2
this thot..hmm...
A penny for my thots for now...
Posted at 04:24 am by B.B.
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Sunday, August 20, 2006
To You Know Who You Are
You called me @ 3am this morning n started cryin over the phone without
sayin anything. It hurt so badly that i had wanted to cry with you. You
saw me through my ups n downs n yet i can do nothing for you. It pains
me to see you suffer like that... you IDIOT! You know how i feel
anot...sometimes you reali make me wonder what i am to you... at
that moment when you are down, u refuse to tell me wat happened sayin
that u need a break n stuffs. Fine, but wait till another day, u give
me another excuse sayin that u dun wish to tok abt it n asked me not to
bring it up. How can i ever help u? U tell me la... U seem to be hiding
so many things from me that i feel distance from u @ times n its not
supposed to be this way u know... we have been thru so much together...
i hope u will let me share this burden w u this time. I'm also very
sorry that i have not been able to be there for u for the past few
weeks... *hugz*
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Past 3 weeks or so have been a whirlpool for me but luckily, things are
starting to get settled down and i have kinda got back my rest in a way
or so :) Friday was prob the first outing i went since 3 weeks
ago... there was a 7month dinner followed by a chilling out session
with the F.R.I.E.S. and some new faces but damn, it was supposed to be
a durian outing but somehow i ended up drinkin again... Nevertheless
the time spent is fun...
Finali, i had the time to meet up with Ros n Bok today. Its been a long
time n we had a good time catching up. Went to "Equally Ice" at TPY
Entertainment Centre. Its a dessert brought in from Taiwan i think n it
was good!!! I had Snow Durian. Though it was not real durian meat but
at least it tasted like durian? yummy...
We were tokin abt Singaporeans n their English today... n we concluded that some pple cannot speak a language well but can write well while some can speak a language well but not write well. For me, i belong to the latter n Ros happened to mention that i write exactly the way i speak... hmm...
As for work, "BUSY-BUZZING" is the word for it. Nevertheless, i
enjoy it coz i've got a bunch of wonderful n lovable pple workin with
me except for RSAF i suppose. =( We accomplished a project this
week but somehow, one thing wen wrong n i was upset with the way it was
handled. You put someone @ risk just to save urself... Not that this
thing was her fault totali but it could have been prevented. Since it
happened, fine but how can u twist the story right infront of me? M juz
so thankful that my IC for this project was understanding enough...
Aniwaez, I realli owe the Gs a big THANK YOU for being so supportive
during these 3 weeks n alwiz ready to help me when i m in need. You
guyz have been great! *hugz* This week should be a tough week ahead w
etc etc etc... let's work it out :)
Before i log off, this message is for VIAN:
I have been thinkin abt u today n i know u are leavin soon. I reali hope to catch up w u soon, u know?!? I miz you...
Posted at 11:50 pm by B.B.
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Thursday, August 10, 2006
Twin, i owe u this... thankz for the bday wish n m so sorri to have left ur name out... :)
Its Singapore's 41st hatchday. A public holiday for many but was on duty. It was reali ... crap i suppose... a 12 hour shift .where we onli had to work for ard 3 hours n i spent the remaining 9 hours juz waiting for the time to pass n knock off. I wouldn't say its bored or rather i can't find a word to describe coz it was a good time spent alone? hmm... i duno...
Past week have been running about settling stuffs n m totali exhausted but yet... i can't sleep. Damn! I seem stronger this time. *keepin my fingers crossed* Not only juggling between my family n work but other relationships which overwhelmed me. I reali duno where i get my extra energy... in this state, i can still look forward to working n stuffs... crazy gal w super hyperactive syndrome? I hope there is no internalization or such... All i know is i wana do many things now n at the same time, i m waiting for a miracle to happen...
Thinkin of the jam-packed things i gotta settle later n i m awake now... *yawn* i think i m turning bad... m so tempted to scold the f*** work these days... "freak" dun seem impactful engh...ha...wat crap....
m still thinking abt wat happened last nite... i did something which cannot be undone... its not right but yet its common. *shake head* was i prepared or not... i duno. nevertheless, its done.
Some reflections:
- Love is a farnee thing where it can be one-sided or both parties love each other. No matter wat, for the relationship to start, it must take 2 hands to clap.
- when both parties have similar lifyestyles, likes n dislikes, y can't they be together? Outsiders see them compatible but of coz, no one noes how it reali is except for the parties themselves. If there is no chemistry, is it reali impossilbe to be together?
- When a married man has flings, they say this, "Give u chicken rice to eat for a few years, u will sian anot? If one day give u western food, you sure wan one wat. Ultimately, i know that home-cooked food is still the best." Is this a reason that is acceptable?
- As the chinese sayin goes, "Qi1 nian2 zi1 yang3" Ever wondered how this phrase came about?
- If a guy reali loves a woman, he can still have flings but will he actuali feel guilty?
- People say never shit in ur own backyard by finding a partner in the same company as u. Is this an excuse for them to "fool" around without having to worry about anything? Yet, it can be reali sweet coz u get to see ur love one everyday.
- when a dog or a cat walks, which leg goes first?
- women in general reali seem to be a worser driver than men
A message:
Be very careful, then, how you live--not as unwise but as wise, making the most of every opportunity, because the days are evil.
You see, human dun have much capital coz we got to earn it or get it by other means. However, there is one type of capital that we have when we dun even need to do anything n that is time. think abt it...
For you only...
9 n 10 Aug marks a very impt day for this mother and child. Happie hatchday Ms Nya and to my beloved Baby Louisa. Happie 1 year old *clap clap*
Posted at 01:39 am by B.B.
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Wednesday, August 09, 2006
Yes, the battle is on and m very tired when i barely fought it...
i need strength but from where...
rochelle, given now, u did something tonite that u never thot u will do... argh... wat's got over u... r u reali ready for this?
Posted at 01:06 am by B.B.
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Monday, August 07, 2006
Friday
was the beginning of the continuation from the last episode, which last paused 6 mths ago? It was a milder thing this time round. I was thinkin of wat i can do but the sudden flashbacks drained me both physically n mentalli almoz immediately. Reali shame on myself tat i duno wat has been happening though m alwiz around but... many holding backs as to wat i wana do.
Dinner w Liting n Selene... how nice it is that we are still in touch since primary school days... It was a good session at aunt's place over a meal where we could have a discussion n share n catchup with each other. A breather session continued with B.S. over a cup of coffee @ ECP. Duno if i had actuali asked the right person out despite some things we have in common like being an owl. Yes, there's a but... Nevertheless, thanks for the time...
Saturday
was a whole day spent at home. No appetite no mood no nothing. I had wanted to do something but i guess i couldn't decide the person, venue and activity. Was so hungry that i decided that a walk to the market to find food will do me good. "3-sec-goldfish-memory" me forgotten that the market had been closed for renovation so i decided to explore further into my neighbourhood n s@@ wat i can find. To my surprise, i found Tiong Shian Porridge!!! I thot i can only go Chinatown to have it but now i know where else i can find it. *Clap clap* Their "za zhou" is simply my favourite.
Sunday
Wat i ate today seem to compensate wat i din eat for the whole of sat n sun. Damn... Herez the story...
I had to meet her. No particular reason but we juz gotta meet!!! Ha... can't mention her name coz i have got a story to tell n i promised that i wun mention her name. Aniwaez, we met at 1pm at The Roti Prata house located @ Upper Thomson Road. She ordered a plain n a cheese prata while i ordered a mushroom cheese n egg prata. We decided on food tasting so we decided on exchanging pratas. While tearing a piece out for me, the fork <her hand la> lost control n "pheeeeee", the prata landed on the feet of a lady at the next table. My clumsy friend burst into laughter immediately n i had to apologise on her behalf. Boy, u shd look at that lady's face... her mouth juz opened so wide that i also burst into laughter. Of coz there were paiseh-ness... Soon after our meal, we headed for the dim sum shop further down. We had har-gao, pai gu n 2 egg tarts. Trust me, the egg tarts were good!!! Comparable to those i eat in Hong Kong... As we were feeling bloated, we took a walk @ Thomson Plaza before we headed home to oink oink.
Met zai online n he was feelin hungry. Decided to accompany him for makan since i was sianzing @ home. He ate this special authentic noodle near Bugis which was red in colour. Let me know if u wana try coz i can't remember the road. Walked around bugis street where i finali gotten my Il Divo CD at $8.
As we all know, there is nothing much we can do in Singapore so we drove ard S'pore? We landed in Sentosa for a 15 minute drive only to expose my other weakness. THE MERLION!!! Shan't elaborate further...
Zai bought me to eat Lim Seng Lee Duck Rice at 38 South Buona Vista Road. Food lovers, you gotta go eat this. Its yummy yummy yummy. I prefer roasted duck to braised duck but this braised duck had made me changed my views... So dun wait duck lovers...
San jie joined us for a drink @ the Dungeon. So full yet had to finish the drinks... thot it was home sweet home thereafter but NO! Greedy us wen Newton for supper... Gong Gong, Sambal Kang Kong n chicken wings... argh...
NOW
Its a monday morn n i'm on duty but yet i still can't get to sleep... watchin the Il Divo videos online now...they are coolz. Of coz this is to help occupy my mind for now... gotta attend to something very impt on tues morn n i wonder how to go about doing it...
This post is long...shall continue again. Good nitez cherry...
Posted at 03:21 am by B.B.
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